In January, my career sort of went off script. Right away, I scrambled to find the original copy. But it's been useless, it's gone. The script has changed. Lately, my most authentic and desperate prayers have sounded something like, "Jesus, can you just show me a little bit of how this is all going to play out? What should my next step be? Jesus, in your mercy, a little bit of light here on the path could really help!" But, apparently that's just not how He rolls. Jesus... wants it all, He wants all my trust.
"Thomas said to him, "Lord, we do not know where you are going; how can we know the way?" Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but by me." John 14:5-6 I can relate to Thomas the Apostle. Not having the script is hard. When we ask for maps and He says "follow me". When we ask for practical instructions for our mission, He says "love your neighbor." When we want to know the most important part of being a disciple, He simply says "abide in me." As frustratingly dim as the path sometimes is, I'm slowly learning to unclench my fists, and trust the true author of the script. If we want to make a difference in the world, we are going to have to be different in the world. Sometimes the enemy uses the world to script our lives out, to show us the step by step plan of a false fulfillment. But it's not the real thing. Jesus offers us the real thing. Those who follow Him, must trust, not only in the long term big stuff, but also in the smaller things of daily bread. They trust and love in the everyday and in the ordinary, even when it's not part of their original plan. Going off script is hard. But in order to live a life of joy, we must learn to be interruptible and flexible. A neighbor in need, an unexpected guest, an unforeseen blessing will always interrupt the script. You and I must be willing to be present to it, abiding in Him, and trusting in His ultimate plan, not our own. I used to complain about all the interruptions to my work until I realized that these interruptions were my work. - Henri Nouwen God wants my heart more than anything else. When I trust Him with the script, He gets all the Glory. If you have doubts about your mission, discerning a new mission, or just want to chat about God's plan for your life, we can relate and we want to support you! You can always leave us a message here and tell us all about it. Be encouraged today! God's got this! peace and good! Ennie
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Danielle Knight
6/12/2019 11:00:48 am
So touched by this post. I'm in the same boat! One of the biggest things I'm learning is that God will go to the most extreme measures to gain our trust so that we'll give Him our heart. The methods might matter less to Him than the end result - that we trust Him more and release extra pieces of our heart to Him.
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